ESHA TRUESELF

2012 :- End of the world

2009-11-17T02:16:00.000-08:00

2012 is a story woven around "mayan prediction". For people who haven’t got the time or chance read/google on the "mayan prophecy" let me quickly give you an overview. It says that some series of unfortunate and uncontrollable natural catastrophes will occur in the year December 2012 to be precise, which will annihilate life on earth. However there are more contradictions than proofs in support of this belief.

Even after knowing the chances of this theory’s occurrence (one in million or rather none!!!!!!!) I went to see the movie that too sacrificing my lovely sleep because it was a late night show on Friday. Actually me and my fiance was smitten by a bug long time back named “watch every movie”. We never wait for the reviews because irrespective of rating, good or bad, we will still go and watch the movie anyway.

Coming back to the movie 2012, this is a roller coaster ride of all kind of natural calamities starting from earthquake, tsunamis, volcanoes etc and all kind of emotions ranging from romance, anger, struggle, betrayal, loss, grief and the list goes on. And amidst all this chaos there is a motley group of people averting, ducking and cheating these horrific and disastrous situations and fighting to stay alive. Their fight is not against nature because it is anyway beyond our scope but to somehow save their lives and keeping their hopes alive.

The director seems to have made many assumptions to maintain the flow. First being that the calamities will take place sequentially one at a time and not parallely. Secondly, that nothing can win over the collective power of our intelligence. As it is shown that all the possible forms of furies put together , could not wipe out our race from earth. In other words a blatant attempt to reinforce the rosy belief that human mind is superior than nature. Which actually shows how overconfident or should I say hopelessly hopeful humans become sometimes. The script also is no exception as in the end a fistful people survive these disasters and the habitable conditions on earth is also maintained. Generalized conclusion:- A film with “happy ending” is what audiences want across boundaries, be it Hollywood, bollywood, tollywood for that matter any wood!!!!!!!! So ground rule is to end the film on a happy note even if it defies logic and common sense.

Strangely despite of many loopholes the movie does succeed to make an impact. It was truly terrifying to see brilliant architectural monuments collapsing and falling in an endless abyss within the deep layers of mother earth. Equally shocking to watch continents getting engulfed by mammoth sky-high waves within seconds and thus washed out of our world map completely. Fierce Volcanoes, erupting infinite volumes of fire and charring everything in reach beyond recognition.

Even with a poor storyline and characterization the film manages to create a feeling of dread successfully. By the end of it I indeed felt as if we all are slowly inching towards a “doomsday” which might not be in 2012 but certainly sometime soon. For this entire experience accolade should be given to the brilliant graphics and special effect team.

On a second thought let us now consider for a few minutes that the unfortunate day is actually in 2012. In that case we all should start preparing a “to do” list and start taking action already. Shouldn’t we? I firmly believe that our world would be a much better place now if somehow the mayan theory is proved to be true. I can already see all of us making efforts, in spite of the little time, to replace hatred by love, war by peace, inequality by equality, cruelty by kindness, coldness with compassion, disagreement by harmony and all the sins by virtue. Money, power, position, religion, caste, creed, community, color, borderlines will cease to hold any value. All of us will be “alive” in true sense instead of just breathing which we nowadays falsely assume as living. Imagine how serene, beautiful and welcoming this same earth will become. How fulfilling each day of our limited life will be!!!! This theory of “judgment day” might scare our wits out but also has a brighter side to it. Right people?

The great Indian Festive Season

2009-11-04T04:14:00.000-08:00

Another dull day... I think I am suffering from "mid week blue"... I dread sunday evenings because its only few hours to monday... I think monday must be the most unhappy of the seven days... Because most of us wish to postpone monday morning eternally...
Well the great Indian festive season has sadly come to an end... The lights, traditional mouthwatering dishes, new and flashy dresses will now finally cease to appear which was till now a common sight.... I will definitely miss the energy and jovial mood which was so much in the air... Come august, and the otherwise desolated streets starts sparkling with lights and buzzing with people... Oh yes how can I forget the "ear bursting music" [ popular chartbusters] .... And by November the vigor is at its optimum level... Crackers adding to the music and taking the decibel level few notches higher... Needless to say that the holidays, on an average 2 every month, add to the celebration...
Although what i really miss from the bottom of my heart is " ambajhari durga pujo" ... [ Ambajhari is the place where i was brought up] .... My favourite days of the festive season or rather year... Durga Pujo holds a very special place in every bengalis heart... And I am very happy to say that I am certainly not an exception in this... I remember the school and college days, when Pujo meant a time to enjoy the exuberance around, forget studies and exams, wear new clothes, gossip, eat to the hearts content, hang out with friends till the wee hours of night... I still remember how excitedly I used to wait for these 5 days all year round... And how quickly those days used to end like in just a blink of an eye...
I should not digress from the topic and come back to the great Indian festive season... The only time when people do not mind spending, in fact willingly indulge in splurging sometimes going over the top... I find it absolutely amazing that how my otherwise "strictly no mindless spending" parents became exceptionally generous around this time of the year...
In all I simply love "great Indian festive season"... not to mention the bouquet of fond memories that it brings along...

" A city of rare qualities " for me

2009-11-03T04:20:00.000-08:00

Back with a Bang!!!!!! [ My dear friend vasundhara banged me with a fact that we have access to the blogs in the otherwise "access forbidden" google results] ........
So here I am doing what I indeed love to do....... yes u are right [ only a genius can crack it (pun intended)] "BLOGGING" ......... tide and time waits for none!!!!!! and i am not an exception..... As you can see a gap of more than 2 years in my postings...... From a "bankrupt", at least that is what my bank book perpetually showed in college days, has now started showing some figures which are enough to lead a contented life...... Of course "content" is a relative term with a ever fluctuating scale........
and i have moved to a city bustling with activity......... People call this place as "a city which never sleeps"........ yes another clue to decipher for all Sherlock Holmes fans !!!!!!!!! Mumbai........... Never in my wildest dreams did i see myself travelling in a local train at a rush hour, either hanging out or crushed between people....... or rather i should change "wildest dreams to the most horrible dreams".......... but that is exactly how i reach my office daily!!!!!!! Initially it was scary and tiresome..... but we human being are the fastest to adapt to change....... and i have also followed the suit...... oh by the way I also work with a reputed IT Services company........ So in short i have a job paying enough to have my basic necessities fulfilled [Roti Kapda Makaan] and make me stay in mumbai much longer than i imagined.......... oh yes before you think that i earn a hefty amount let me tell you that the makaan is rented!!!!!! In mumbai owing one 2bhk flats equals owner of at least 50lakh..... that is the simple equation.......
Living in a metro is certainly an experience one must have....... not to mention that this "city of dreams" which people call it fondly unlike me, also has its charm......... In this India's economical capital i have seen the widest ever economical divide........ Poorest of poor and wealthiest of wealthy......... Families who sleep on pavement and families with filthy amount of money........
In this very city of dreams I have seen people deprived off sleep for many days let alone to dream........."a city that never sleeps" very rightly said.......... people mindlessly chasing after buses, trains, taxis, money, dreams, career ......... and the list is never ending.......... I sometimes find myself lost in this swarm of people........
But somehow this city has its charm....... the feeling of privacy in a crowd amazes me about this place........ assurance of no misbehaviour in a overbrigde packed with people compels me to like this place....... there are many like this.......... which i name as "a city of rare qualities" .........

relations entangled in Mr. and Mrs. Iyer..........

2007-04-20T02:35:00.000-07:00

today i saw a movie "Mr. andMrs. Iyer" directed by aparna sen............. i know i am awfully late in watching the movie............ many of u, no no i should say most of u, must have already watched it............ its beatifully directed in a picturesque location............ although the backdrop of the movie is grim but the story in my understanding explores the relations that happen/forms at the most unusal places and under the most unexpected circumstances........ it explores the heart and mind of the people captured in a situation where everything is beyond their control and imagination...... it tells us that how relationships develops its strength and grabs a place in the mind and heart....... it also potrays that how a person completely different in in every respect that one can think of gets etched in the mind forever and takes a special place in life.......... remembering whom, later on, the heart aches...........

i was then thinking that is it really possible to control the growing affection and attachment that a person develops for another with time slowly and steadily........ the process is sometimes so slow that by the time this process comes into registration of the mind it becomes impossible to ignore the bond and supress the affection......... now dont confuse it with "Love" as understood and depicted in the ordinary bollywood movie............ where the hero realises that he is so much in love with the heroine that he cannot live a moment without her.......... i am not talking about that illusory love...... i am talking about a attachment so strong that it almost threatens the proper functioning of other established relations in life............ as in the movie konkona sensharma develops with rahul bose........... a bond that in a way takes her away from her own husband......... and her heart keeps longing for the man she is never going to see again....... same is the case with rahul bose also but as he is not married the harm in his case will be little less.......... that is what i think........... oh!!!!!! i lost the track of the question i had strated with.............

so coming back to the oiginal issue......... is it really in human control to monitor and regulate the growth of closeness and fondness for another person???????? does developing this kind of feeling depends on the situation one is in or can happen anytime anywhere????????
i know that time is a ruthless healer......... it takes away all hopes and pain, very slowly and steadily and leaves back feeling of pain or happiness attached with the incident(what we call memories).......... so are these kind of fondness and attachments that grow between two person a fleeting thing???????? a trasitory phase??????? where both of them come to know about each other, make a bond that lasts in their memories for the lifetime and then suddenly come to reality and go back in the routine life with these memories and nothing else???????? at least this is what is shown in the movie........ where both the central characters move back to their respective lives with mind full of memories and heart full of loss......... well i am thoroughly confused......... although i hope i have not left u confused...........

food for thought!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-04T05:38:00.000-07:00

we have a subject in the last trimester of my MBA that deals with the ecology, science and environment. basically with the nature. its a nice course to have atleast its different than the usual ones. well that day an interesting issue was raised in the class. it was about what food one should eat?????? well our sir was of the opinion that we should always eat that food which is supported by the ecology of the area we are living in..... that means if i am living in jammu then i should eat only those things that can be grown in jammu......... not the things transported from outside where the environment can be different than of jammu......... how true or untrue it is????? when i heard this idea for the first time i was not only taken aback but found it absurd....... but to a cretain extent it is true.......... in the very early stages of evolution humans were dependent on those foods that could be grown in the area they were living in.......... but that time there was no tranport available and moreover there is no evidence that those poeple were more healthy than us............ i mean the environment we are living in has changed so much that many foods and plants has completely vanished from the face of the earth.......... we can nevertrace them back or know about them............ and in the course of time we also have found out many new things that are quite haelthy to eat right?????????? so how can we say that we will be well of by surviving only on local foods?????????? why i cannot take that logic is because there is no clear cut evidence to back this "assumption" up.......... so it is really difiicult for me to swallow it up..........
i was reading the book titled as "your food is your best medicine" written by Mr. Henry Beiler. he cures diseases by changing the foods that we eat........... in fact he is of the opinion that food is the root cause of every diseases............ and that is why it is very important to be cautious and selective with the food we eat........... but he never mentioned that foods out of the locality is taxing to our bodies........ so is it true that eating foods not supported by the ecology is bad for the health???????????? well i could not find any clear cut evidence.......... so cannot believe in it fully............

last days of my college

2007-03-31T04:54:00.000-07:00

i am in my final year of MBA!!!!!!!!! will have to leave this institute in next one month.......... i joined the course two years back........... now after two years all i will take back along with me(definite and certain) is a job from here.......... actually that why i have joined the course for.......... so logically i should be happy coz i have got what i wanted and my two years seems to be successful........... but still with the passing days i am feeling more depressed..... why??????? thats what i was pondering on in last few days...... well before this i have done B.E (mechanical)........... that was a four year course......... so it seems that now i am spending my last days as a student......... so coming back to the question that why i am feeling so sad, i guess i should write on that topic rather than deviating from the topic..........
a new life is going to start for me with all new people.......... the equations of interactions will also change.......... in student there is no particular mannner in which we are supposed to interact but in professional life i have to constantly keep that in mind.......... and on the top of that i dont where the hell they are going to post me............ i mean what location........ everything i so uncertain and ambiguous........... and thats what i am afraid of........... uncertainty and ambiguity......... personally i hate anything that is not certain........... i like my life to be predictable...... and i think thats what everybody likes............. predictable life so that therew ould be least number of botherations......... a peaceful and clam life.......... but that will lead to a steadiness and thats not what i want............ actually i want to know the outcome of the change beforehand.......... i dont want to face it as it comes and decide then and there........... i am infact very poor in decision making............ i do many things on sheer impulse.......... that makes my life more uncertain........... but u know when one cannot take decisions they act on impulse.......... so coming back to the outcome of the change, i know it sounds so unnatural and unviable...... i mean how can u know the outcome before letting it happen...... but thats i wish or so that i end up only in profit........... isnt that what everybody secretly wish for????????? to know everything in prior to its happening........ to eliminate any kind of messy and confusing situation........ isnt that the root cause of apprehension that we have before taking any job of whose result we are not sure of???? like exams?????? hahaha!!!!!!!!!
after a few days i will again find myself amidst strangers, in difficult positions all of which i dont know beforehand.......... everything will be so uncertain.......... thats why i am feeling so depressed........... i will again have to deal with change of whose outcome i am not sure of........... the predictability that i have now will be lost again........... does that mean that change is bad?????? should i avoid change???????? what if it leads to my betterment in the end?????? haow do i decide where it will actually lead me to??????? i think now that i know why i am feeling so lost and sad, its high time i start thinking on the above questions........... if anybody reading my blog have any answer feel free to comment.............

definition.............

2007-03-17T05:07:00.000-07:00

"Music is sound in time. Music is a personal response to vibration since the same piece of music will affect people differently. Although it cannot contain emotions, it is sometimes designed to manipulate and transform the emotions of the listeners." does this definition sounds true.......... nope not to me............ will explain sometime later..............

music refreshes...........

2007-03-17T05:00:00.000-07:00

music........... i once thought of writting on it but got caught up in some other work thats why couldnt do it.......... i think that it is the best medicine available on earth for me........... really soothing relaxing and refreshing............ u may feel that i am sounding cliche but it is the truth..........

2007-03-02T00:45:00.000-08:00

hi all(if anybody reads this!!!!!!!!!!)
well our sir has asked us to open a blog and write somethnig on environment......... he says that our individual initiative can really do well for the whole society........ not at all a bad idea i thought thats why wanted to share an experience with u all......... recently only we all went to the city dump yrad and saw miles miles of waste there........ waste that we create on daily basis.......... in the initial phase i was not so impressed....... but come to think of it we really do create a lot of waste that we can control very easily....... i have started taking precautions and have reduced that waste that i used to produce daily........... maybe others have also..........
anyway now a days i am enjoying a lot......... thought that will spend some good time before leaving the college......... will have to join the job soon.......... oh forgot to tell that i have got a job!!!!!!!!! see i thought that it was the most important thing in my life and the joy of getting it was so shortlived that i forgot to mention it on the blog!!!!!!!! so now i am thinking that whether it was really important or human always live in illusions and considers wrong for right, joy for sorrow etc etc.

2007-02-05T00:58:00.000-08:00

the blog below is not that readable that is because i did some great mind work on it thats why....... anyway i m in nostalgia at the moment about my school days.......... were really memorable and beautiful.............. not as dull like this............... oh by the way i am doing my postgraduation these days............ and mind u i m not old( that is u may think i am after reading what i m actually studying) ok.............. anyway enough of my school days memories......... i guess everybody have them................ and yes thats not me in the photograph........ i was much more beautiful than that.............

2007-02-05T00:46:00.000-08:00

i am quite irregular to post blogs.......... but never mind who bothers to read them anyways............. and moreover i am almost blank while writting this blog.......... just now i was remembering my old school days that were so beautiful and full of fun............ i still miss them.......... oh by the way i am doing my postgraduate now a days......... it may seem that i am a old one but not like that if u people get a chance to meet me actually..........

2006-12-21T21:23:00.000-08:00

what a search machine google has created!!!!!!!!!!! wonderful!!!!!!!!! amazing!!!!!!!!!!now why suddenly did i write this???????????? because i am searching some material for my assignments and simultaneously thinking that without google's help how would i do this?????? replaced almighty!!!!!!!!!! that was an exaggeration............ anyway enough of crap!!!!!!
so now i will write something that interests me a lot........... that is music!!!!!!!! cant imagine my day without listening to music......... that is the best friend to rely on at times of distress!!!!!! so what u all reading this post think about it???????????

2006-12-20T23:53:00.001-08:00

oh phew!!!!!!!!!! now got the time to post something............. a great medium to converse and share......... so now i am confused about life.............. am in dilema as to where i need to go and why??????????? anyway going with the time............. in other words managing everything............. so now i am a bit tired of managing......... but the irony is i have chosen a feild where i will be known as manager............. guess opposite poles really do attract.............
dont worry if u have not got any of it as the only thing that is real is confusion!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ha ha !!!!!!!!!!!!! what a word of wisdom...............

2006-12-20T23:46:00.000-08:00